Happy Birthday, Kuya Santino.

The birthday boy!

Today, our panganay or Kuya Santino turns 4. Happy, happy birthday Kuya. :) We call him our train man since he has had this obsession with anything trains since he was 2 years old! I think it's safe to say that it is now more than just a "fad" and is now an obsession? ha ha. Oh Kuya, you make me so happy.

To be honest, I have bittersweet feelings about today. I am so happy that Kuya is growing up to be such a smart, handsome and energetic little boy. Time flies so fast. But I also am sad that our family will never be complete again for all important days and milestones such as today because Giovanni has passed. I know he is there in spirit and his memory will forever be alive with us, but it's still not the same. I want to be able to be there fully for my other two children... I do not want to deprive them of the mommy that they know and love.... even with Giovanni's passing.

Oh Giovanni, I miss and love you so much. I know that Daddy, Kuya and Ate also miss you so so much. You are always in our thoughts and prayers. Please pray and watch over us always.

My 2 boys: Santino and Giovanni, November 2011

To our darling Santino, we are so so proud of you anak. Continue to take care of all of us here and bring laughter to our boring days. Be assured that baby Giovanni is watching over you and is giving you a big hug and kiss from heaven.