Faith works wonders.

I have not been updating this blog, well, because I guess I was finding an excuse to keep my self so busy that I would not have time to reflect or feel sad over my sweet Giovanni. It's been only 5 months but whenever I replay images of that day in August, it feels like only yesterday. Every emotion, moment and pain is so so real. I would give ANYTHING to get my baby back, but yet I know it is not God's plan for it to be so. How can I have such a positive outlook? Some people may say... to that I reply, what else should I believe in? It's true, you do find God in your lowest of low moments. I guess because He is the only one who can comfort your grief and your pain. To be honest, whenever I am in that "moment" where I recall and start sobbing, I force myself to focus on the fact that Giovanni is now where we all aim to be. He is in heaven with Jesus, Mary, the Saints and all our loved ones gone before. How can I compete with that? I know in my heart he is happy. I just wish I could be that happy as well. But I know my time will come. The perfect time when I will see my Giovanni again.

I know that some people can tend to get depressed whenever they read my posts, who wouldn't, right? haha and I'm sorry. But on to better news... I'm PREGNANT!!! Baby #4 is coming everybody!!

Baby #4 at only 3 months old in my womb

Santi and I along with the kids are OVER THE MOON. Some people say, "isn't it too soon?" to which I reply, when is God's blessing ever "too soon?" God truly knows when we are ready to receive blessings, and this new life is by far what our family (and extended family) needs. With baby comes blessings. Thank you everyone who are continuing to pray for us. I can only wish that Kuya Giovanni could be here physically to hug and kiss his future baby brother or sister (another exciting thing coming soon!!). But I do know that Giovanni is always here with us and always watching over us. I thank God for my little personal angel always looking out for me. :)

This year, our community (CFC-Foundation for Family and Life) has declared this 2013 to be the YEAR OF FAITH. When all these things happened in my life, I look at this declaration as God's promise to be fulfilled in our life. Hang on and have faith.

"All things work together for good, to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose (Romans 8:28)" 

And not just the good things, but ALL things. I take this to heart because I trust in God's plan. I trust in Him despite the pain and suffering, through the hardships and the blessings, and because I trust, He will  not fail me. Through my faith, God will work wonders.

All about babies

Hi Everyone, just want to introduce to you our newest addition, our 4th "baby"... Meet Gordon. :)

Gordon the Dog

He's been with us for a few almost 2 weeks already and we love him to pieces. We had decided to get a dog after our "incident" and decided on a small, perky, smart and super kid-friendly dog. He needed to be the breed that had enough stamina to keep up with 3 young kids!! And I must say he was the right choice. My kids love him so much and he's quite the character! The first few days we would put him outside our sala (outer kitchen) in a doggie cage and he would just cry the whoooole night. Kaka-awa! Then recently I bought him his own bed and he took to it immediately the first night. He now sleeps in our sale (outside our bedroom) and is super happy and content... as you can see, he loves posing for the camera. ha ha. Santino, my eldest, was the one who named him. Of course it is after one of his favorite trains, Gordon...

Gordon the Train

Hay. Si Kuya talaga... hindi mawawala ang trains. He literally misses his trains whenever we go out for the day and can't wait to come home and play with them. I think he watches too many youtube videos on Thomas trains because when he plays by himself he speaks in a narrative as if he is telling a story... for example one time I bought him talking to himself... "'Oh no! There are missing coaches,' said Gordon. Sir Toppom hat was cross."... imagine that with feelings talaga and change in tone when he shifts from the dialogue to the narrator. ha ha ha ha. I have such smart kids. Proud mommy right here. Pagbigayan niyo na. :)

Speaking of babies, I've heard great things about the SM Grand Baby fair in the Megatrade hall happening this weekend. I am seriously thinking about going... But then the mother of 3 inside me is saying I will just end up buying so much stuff I don't need anymore.... ha ha ha. But for first-time mothers, I would definitely recommend going here. Especially if you still have a lot of "essentials" that you have yet to get, it could be a chance to get a good deal on a lot of stuff. 

I remember (sometimes a bit vaguely due to all the anesthesia, haha) my first time being a mom (with Santino), I was buying all kinds of stuff especially whenever there was a sale. ha ha. I guess that's just the natural thing for mothers to do. nowadays, 3 kids later, it's more on how I can re-use or reinvent stuff from the first child up until the last one. ha ha. I guess in a way kawawa din young mga buns because they get hand me downs... but of course I make sure naman that all the second (or third) hand stuff is still in good condition. :)

My latest obsession nowadays is dressing up my 2 boys in identical outfits. hehehe!! It's just too cute!! Here's a photo of my kids during the Christmas season.. dressed my boys in matching tops and Belly in the matching hue. It's so addicting. 

When I was growing up my mom used to dress me and my sister in identical outfits ALL THE TIME.. and I absolutely hated it. I vowed not to do that to my children, but now I can't help myself!! It's just too cute. I can now relate to my mom.. or worse.. I am becoming my mom!! LOL. I'd post a pic of past matching outfits bet me and my sis but thankfully (or not) I can't find any. No evidence! ha ha.